Could that have been Judas’ greatest downfall, the inability to see himself as a sinner and hence receive God’s forgiveness? For without that sense of forgiveness, life holds little joy and the future is hopeless. Someone once said that the person who knows himself or herself to be a sinner and does not know God’s forgiveness is like an overweight person who fears stepping on a scale.
I once read about a very bitter man who was sick in soul, mind, and body. He was in the hospital in wretched condition, not because his body had been invaded by a virus or infected with some germ, but because his anger and contempt had poisoned his soul. One day, when he was at his lowest, he said to his nurse, “Won’t you give me something to end it all?” Much to the man’s surprise, the nurse said, “All right. I will.” She went to the nightstand and pulled out the Gideon Bible and began to read, “For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have eternal life.” When she finished she said, “There, if you will believe that, it will end it all. God loves you, forgives you and accepts you as his child.”
Such a simple answer. But it worked for that man. He realized after much soul-searching that she had spoken truly. And over a period of some time, he came to believe and accept God’s love for him.
There is a way to God. Jesus died to provide it. We may not be Mary or that “woman of the city,” but there are sins that weigh upon our hearts. There are scars and cuts that we have inflicted on others. There is a darkness within each of us that no one knows of but God. But that same One, our loving God, sees all and forgives all and calls us to God.
Remember, the one who is forgiven little loves little. But the one who is forgiven much loves with all the heart! May that be true of us. In Jesus’ name. Amen.